Tuesday, 15 November 2011

Boy, I think about it every night and day I'm addicted, wanna jump inside your love

Being unemployed is taking its toll on me.

I like to think that I am a happy person, not irritatingly happy but I am pretty happy in myself and in life however there is only so many lonely days I can take. My days are filled with trawling through graduate job websites, recruitment websites, my local paper's job section and writing cover letter after cover letter.

It's getting me down. I live in the world's worst place for transport, the local bus service is a joke and it costs me horrendous amounts to go anywhere. Normally I prevent myself from moaning about it, but not on here. Why the bleeding hell should I?! This is my blog and I am going to admit it - I'm sick of job hunting, of being unemployed and of being useless. No amount of tea and biscuits can help, believe me I've tried.

I've always been motivated and focused to get to Warwick University, throughout my A Levels I knew what I had to do to get in. I knew I wanted a 2.1 and to do well in my dissertation. Now I have no idea, no bloody idea. I've changed my life plans more times than I can remember and just when I think I have settled on 'London' being a suitable plan I realise it isn't. I don't know that many people in London, I don't have the money to live there, I don't have the support network I have here. My friends at home and away have been brilliant recently, as have my family and I owe them all so much. The support of my parents and sister means a lot and I'm glad they aren't pushing me into something I don't want to do. The worst day was on Saturday when I got 2 rejection emails (who sends out rejections on the weekends?!) One from a company I have previously worked in for 2 years and the other for a Christmas temp job. How depressing. All is not lost though, I do have an interview on Friday and I really want the job. It seems a lovely place to work and its local and the job sounds very interesting. Fingers crossed!

Anyway to cheer myself up I have made a list of people I want to have a cuddle with. You know when sometimes you just need a cuddle. Lee normally helps out here, but he lives far away and I've not seen him for like 3 weeks which is a cuddle-mare. One reassuring arm around me and a kiss on the forehead is just what I need right now, preferably whilst I am stuffing my face with doritos. ANYWAY on with my list:





Lee, obviously. Feel the love from that photo.

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Who wouldn't want a cuddle from Father Christmas? I bet he is all toasty and smells like Christmas and toys. Also his big belly makes him perfect cuddle material and I would be guaranteed to get the Christmas presents I really want. 

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My hero. Phillip Schofield has been there for me recently - I like to watch hilarious clips from his time on This Morning. There is something infectious about his laugh, plus the fact it is live on TV. Oh and he is my ultimate silver fox.

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My favourite of all animals, the Red Panda. Y THEY SO CUTE?!


My main man, my favourite teddy. Yep my love for him is so strong that I made him pose with my favourite mug... I need to get out more.


Is anyone else hating on job hunting? How do you cope with it? 


17 comments:

  1. I hope you feel better soon! I'm having enough trouble just finding a Christmas temp job so I can't imagine what you're going through but I hope something works out for you soon :) I love the cuddle list too, definitely in agreement with Father Christmas! xxx

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  2. Ahhh thank you Helen, its a nightmare trying to find any work! I hope you find a christmas temp job soon :) xxxxx

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  3. Best of luck with that interview m'dear! I am stuck in the same nightmare as you.. although people think I'm mad because I had a job but quit. Ahahaha. Hmm. Even though I'm volunteering interning etc it's not bringing home the bacon so I am slowly but surely making my way through my savings... It's very depressing indeed! Especially when friends having amazing jobs/careers.
    Also, your teddy is cute. I have an old one too but he lives in France with my mum at the mo.
    xxx

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  4. Thanks Rachel! I don't blame you for leaving though, sounded like an awful time and I bet you're glad you got out! I know what you mean, you do feel a bit left behind. ONE DAY RACHEL, one day we will have our dream jobs! xxxxx

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  5. I'm currently unemployed after moving to Norwich to live with my boyfriend and it is a constant struggle to find a job! Not only that, I hate that I don't know my way around so i'm so scared that i'm always going to get lost going to an interview.

    Hope you find a job sooner rather than later! I hate not having a job when Christmas is just around the corner! ARGH! XX

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  6. I hope the interview goes well for you. I'm employed and yet still struggling so i can't imagine how tough it must be, we've come pretty close to shutting down but are still going.

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  7. Good luck with your interview! I know how you feel, I was out of work/university last year and it was awful. Something will come up soon! xx

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  8. Thank you ladies for all your comments, they have cheered me up no end!

    @Grace, that does sound pretty intimidating, I don't blame you being nervous in a new place! I hope we get christmas sorted!
    @dinoprincesschar, its such a bad time, I hope that things get better for you and you stay open

    Xxxxxx

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  9. Good luck with your interview Missy! Just remember that everything happens for a reason, and things might not be working out for you right now because a fabulous opportunity is around the corner!

    When you've finished cuddling Santa Claus, feel free to send him in my direction ;)

    And best of luck for Friday! xXx

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  10. I'm still at uni but can't even manage to get a part time job or a christmas temp one! I'm dreading the end of uni because I just don't know what I'll do! Really hope the interview goes well for you and that you feel better about everything soon! xxx

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  11. Lots of luck with the interview, hope it goes exactly as you want it to :) Share your pain on the employment front, tis rubbish. Love the pic of you & Lee!!x

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  12. It is good to have a rant on the blog, it is your blog and you should definitely feel like you can talk about what you want. I am totally with you on the job hunting. I tried and tried. Luckily, i already had the business to fall back on (i started tempsec shop during uni). It is ridiculous some of the things that companies say as an excuse not to hire you. Esp when you've worked within the company before. It's tough at the moment but hang in there - your hard work will pay off! xxxxx

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  13. Good luck with your interview :).
    The feeling one has without a job is horrible, I know it too well.

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  14. Eeeee thank you ladies! I'm so glad everyone has been so nice! maybe I should rant on here more often haha! I hope this all gets better for people and there is no more unemployment misery xxxxx

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  15. Oh Becca, I know exactly how you feel, it's only been about five days since I was in that position myself!!! It is hard, I applied for loads (i'd say 100) of jobs and I have only had one interview.... which I managed to get. So if anything, I was just Lucky! But I have had to move two and a half hours away from my home to a town where I know no one but my boyfriend which is where I live... with his parents (which is challenging!) But having got that job makes it all ok :) you can do it!!! Don't give up and have faith!!!! And remember, a blog is for your thoughts!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  16. I graduated last year and oh my god, job hunting was THE MOST painful and depressing time of my life.

    Like you I had a master plan about what I wanted to do, what I was doing at uni etc then as soon as uni ended I was lost.. horrible feeling

    I hope you have had better luck since this post, and even though I know it doesn't help.. at least you aren't the only one. There are loads of us :) It took me 5 months to get a job and I had to somehow support myself through it because I didn't move back in with my parents (no idea how I did it) xx

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