I ruined this beautiful moment by saying:
'I wouldn't change anything about our 4 years... Oh wait, I'd actually change a fair amount of it, I can name several periods I'd change'
Lee was silent for a while then agreed. I then listed the times I'd tried to dump him in the past, being a massive commitment freak.
I came full circle and tried to cheer the situation up a bit by saying that all the experiences made our relationship what it is today.
We agreed and fell asleep.
Happy 4 years Lee, at least we both agree we'd change some things.