Tuesday, 30 June 2015

What a difference a year makes

As I sit here, staring at my empty wine glass and watching Lee play the PlayStation it seems like almost nothing has changed, but I broaden my gaze and I see the bunting over our window, I see the pictures capturing our relationship proudly on display and I see my exercise mat propped up against the sofa. All these little things point to the biggest thing that has happened over the last year; Lee and I have moved in together.

Together
Just the two of us
Grown ups

I was re-reading my last great post about body image this morning and I realised just how important writing empowered messages and posting pretty pictures is to me. Recently my work/life balance has become skewed and I spend all night thinking about work and my weekends mooching around and doing very little. I used to explore London or go out my way to cram in as many experiences as possible and for the last year or so I've lost my mojo. I keep a journal now and I write my little essays in there, however I think its time for my digital comeback - no stats, no pressure and (almost) no point.

I'm writing this after taking two days off work just to be alone and hang out by myself. I feel like London has confused me, muddled up who I am and left me alone to work it out. I'm left feeling inadequate that I don't have this bag, this coat or these shoes. I'm left feeling a little alone in a city of over 8 million. I'm left wondering what on earth I'm doing spending so much money on rent.

These two days, plus a visit from my parents have worked wonders. I highly recommend and me-cation if you're feeling any of the above.

I'm feeling renewed and ready to blog. I also happened to take some really nice photos at Kew Gardens today which is super handy. I think my online voice is back..


4 comments:

  1. London can be a bitch for loneliness, super glad you've found some mojo on your me-cation though, you've been missed.
    And congratulations on all the adulting, that's kind of huge and fabulous!
    M x

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  2. I'm feeling all of this right now. So many questions about what I'm doing and why I'm in London. So few answers at the minute. It's nice to have you back though, I'm so glad you are xx

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  3. Welcome back!! Good luck with getting back into the swing of things and finding your online/ digital presence again. As someone whose been blogging on and off (mainly off ... ) for 4 plus years I know how difficult it can be!! Keep it up and I look forward to reading more from you!!

    And hope the co-habitation is going well. My boyfriend and I moved in together in November and it has just been the best thing for us as a couple!!!

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